When you are not yourself and you desire to be

©️Tep Fai 2019



You'd put up a face around those people you know who talk behind your back. You do not want them to see you defeated.



You became the person you hate because you defend yourself. You were gentle and timid but now you stood fiercer and let them see you fight.


People would feel pushed away and you come back to being alone. And you hate on facing anything to keep the peace somehow, not knowing the war grows within you.



You'd run to the restroom before a big project. You rather wish the activity will be postponed. You do not like bigger task because when you fail, they will judge you and that is what all you think about.



You made an honest mistake and you felt misunderstood. You were corrected but you feel discouraged. You lay awake crying blaming yourself repeating what you should have done. You just cant forgive yourself.


Be yourself, they say, but which? Are you still that weak compromising being? Or have you truly transform to somebody strong that you struggle with?


Relax,


1. Do the right thing no matter what. - Do not fear people. You know you fear and love God. 


2. It is not your job to please them, sweetheart!


- You do bad things theyd talk. You do good things, they ignore. So what’s the point of always reading their minds and manipulate your actions? Life is short, baby!



3. Cry, it’s okay. Yeah, it feels human too. Cry one time big time and stop there.



4. Forgive yourself. Yes, a big part of the haunting pain is the fact that you hate yourself for what other things made you think.



6. You know you can ask God to heal your heart and to forgive. - The best out there that I can tell you. Nobody can teach your heart (you tried in the past, were you able to?) but the One who created it. Iluhod mo lang yan sa Lord ^_^


©️Tep Fai 2020  www.stepinme.tumblr.com

Vanilla Cupcake Bakery (Bonifacio High Street ) visit ! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ

Happy New Year, everybody! ↖(^ω^)↗
Heyyeah, who's on 2 weeks vacation like me? -Raise your haaands! \▔□▔)/▔□▔)/
Here goes my fave cheesecake-an in the whole world! As promised, I'mma blog review all the VCB shops that I'll visit. ლ(⌒▽⌒ლ) 
Today, I happen to come across one at the Bonifacio High Street. I will update with details soon! Stay tuned! I wasnt able to bring an HD cam for my snaps so I had to edit them. Sorry about that. <(ˍ ˍ*)> 

For details about Vanilla Cupcake Bakery (prices, etc), please visit my first visit review @ http://stepinme.blogspot.com/2014/05/vanilla-cupcake-bakery.html
   o∩_∩o If youre gonna take my photos out, kindly do the credits thing. Salamat!

Here are my ates Kat and Shie. I dragged them along .. Hahahah

Snappy!! ლ(⌒▽⌒ლ) 

Oh yes. Thank you! (´ε｀ )♡ 

The view from the inside. We found our seats at the middle of the store to have a 360 degrees view. ^______^

There are more tables and chairs here compared to the Glorietta branch. It looks more crowded on my opinion.

ANybody who noticed their air condition designs too? No compromise at all! #LOVELYNESSATITSBEST (´･ω･`) 

Guess they have the same choices from my visit last time. No problem with that! (´･ω･`) 

The ceiling view. Unli girly colorful lamps and Kath Cidston mugs are hanging which gave me and my friend an idea - is VCB a London Company thought? All this time, I thought it was from a Korean one.

For a time, I had an urge to open these wall drawers. Hahahah!

This one's near the cashier! Im so out of words! Pretty!!

Best Very Vanilla Shake on town! ლ(⌒▽⌒ლ) 

Time Machine (A step to the past)

Alright. Seriously, if I had a time machine! (~˘▽˘)~  I'd go time travel everywhere, take a good look of Manila and the people (dead people waaa) but I wouldnt change anything. (OMG. Wars, canons, and all waaa!) I just imagine that it'll be like watching a 3d flashback film (or even 5D or 11) Tralalalalaaa (¬˛ ¬ ") ʃ (っ˘з˘)っ

Intramuros, Manila. One of my favorite kind of place in the country! I had a surprise visit there one early morning this June. Unplanned, yes! ~(˘▽˘~)

It was around 8am when me and my good colleague made our way there. We took a pedicab, asked the driver to bring us to Fort Bonifacio. The driver was confused though. I wondered why. ┐(˘˘,)┌ 

Palacio El Gobernador

 Taking snaps when riding the pedicab. This antique-looking building says it's the Palace of the Governor. 

Lovely, this one is located just in front of ..

Yaey! Here we are now! Yes! It's not Fort Bonifacio, hahah! It's Fort Santiago! That explains the manong's confusion. ┒ (^˛^)┎ (┎','┒)  LOL. 

On my first time here like four years ago, the entrance fee was like 15 pesos. Guess what. Five years later, it's 25 pesos.  Nah! It's 75 pesos for non-students. What a raise!  (⊙▂⊙)

ticket!

Now, let's go in! (っ˘з˘)っ

An ancient building located at right side upon entrance

We took a peek from one of the  wooden-grilled windows and checked what's inside. ƪ(‾O‾")ʃ  It's empty though. (ˇ_ˇ'!l)   As from what I read, it was once an imbakan of stuffs to be shipped via Pasig river.  ┒('o'┒) Scanned from the ceilings to the bricked floors for moments as I keep on wondering how were the operations look back then. The scenario. Are the workers Filipinos? Spaniards? I want to go in! (っ˘з˘)っ

that's a tunnel

I wonder why was it locked. I saw snapshots from other travelers that managed to pass through. Maybe because it was too early when we went there? Dunno. ┐(˘˘,)┌ 

At one of the tourist vehicles. Yes? Maam? Sir?

Holding the Fort Santiago flyer they gave that contains some historical information, map and photos of the place. (~˘▽˘)~

 Fort Santiago 

What a sight. (⊙▂⊙) I'm so speechless. I always love this arko sa personal. (っ˘з˘)っ Imagine (not Kelly standing there) a number of soldiers and our ninunos passing in and out this big ark! Soldiers running holding their weapons, etc.  (¯―¯٥) The carvings as you see, reminds me of foreign, British (particulary) castles. (I remember Narnia movies though.) ┒ (^˛^)┎

Upon entering, this is the sight from the right side. Those are lolo Jose Rizal's mark of last footsteps and a sight of a theater ruin

Rizal Shrine

This one is from the left. New pavements, new paint, the bermuda grass, the flags and all. Not sure if I prefer that or I like it more preserved. Who knows, what it may look before. Anyhow, the Intramuros administration made a good work on re-making the place. (~˘▽˘)~ ~(˘▽˘~) You see the guardia civil over there? Did they dress like that too decades ago? ┐(˘˘,)┌ 

My heart skipped bits when I saw this. Look!  It's a teatro!!!  (⊙▂⊙) (⊙▂⊙) (⊙▂⊙) (っ˘з˘)っ

No information were given though. What year was it built, what happened, and maybe they ought to tell what was the use and if plays were performed!!! (｀⌒´メ) (Frustrated stage director wild dreamer here! \(´▽`)/ )

the interiors of the theater ruins

This is probably where the audience is. ƪ(‾ε‾“)ʃ  Wait, what was to watch here anyways? Hmmmm. 

Look! I had a VIP Backstage pass!

The face goes serious as she thinks deeply, . (︶︹︶)  wondering how does it look like before it came to ruins. Tralalalala (~˘▽˘)~ ~(˘▽˘~)
The strong stone built was really fascinating! (╥﹏╥) 

Lolo Jose on his prison cell

Hi lolo Jose! This figure is as same as his actual height.

This cell was attached to the left hand part of the Rajah Sulayman Theater ruins. I believe the pavements and bricks were untouched. (┎','┒)

A passage to the Pasig River in 1762

 The Dungeons. They used to be vaults, then later converted to prison cells and storerooms in 171n. I want to go in! Kidding.

I call this the stone house. Didnt go in though. It was closed (¯―¯٥) I wonder what's inside! ┒('o'┒) 

The dungeons/tunnels

 

First timer here!

Wondered for a bit why there was another 10 peso fee for this but much to my amazement, it's worth more!

Chinas owned by the Rizal family

We were allowed to take photos but were requested to remove the flash. Why!!!!!!!? Will the (っ˘з˘)っ (っ˘з˘)っ (っ˘з˘)っ get disturbed? Kiddin.

Lolo Jose's novels's first published issues. At first, I thought they were the original ones. You know, the ones lolo Jose wrote on. Teeheeh (~˘▽˘)~

lolo Jose's

Rizal family's books

Rizal family's furniture

Rocking chairs, a lil bed, a basin, cabinets, a family dining table, mirror closet. Astig! \(´▽`)/\(´▽`)/\(´▽`)/

Yes. The feels. (~‾▿‾)~(~‾▿‾)~ I actually got close and took a good look on everything there. I didnt take a lot of snaps though because I dont feel like too. Literally. In addition to the dim ambiance and antique-y smell, we were the only visitors that time. Now you know. (~‾▿‾)~(~‾▿‾)~ (~‾▿‾)~ We were like (⊙▂⊙)(⊙▂⊙).

more of lolo Jose's memorabilia

Huwaaat! It's lolo Jose's medical/surgical instruments. I cant beleb des. So cool!

Why does is seem to me, that he was a dentist? ┐(˘˘,)┌

Rizal Shrine snap

Hey lolo Manuel!

Nope. This isnt a figure. This is a real lady, and a horse. Teehee!

The chariots!

Yep! To add to the Spanish times feels, horsey-horsey rides are available with lil Filipino manong drivers dressed in what I call Katipunan or Andres Bonifacio costumes - white longsleeve tops with neck red scarves ƪ(»ˇ⌣ˇ«)ʃ





aaaand ... that ends our lil morning stroll  :) So long, Fort Santiago!

History is here. Intramuros, Manila

Anything history, it interests me. My personality goes like going to the bottom of things. I guess that explains it. Ilocos is next! Till then! Happy time travel! (~˘▽˘)~ ~(˘▽˘~)

We used our Cherry Mobile Flare 2X  8MP camera for the shoot.
Credits to Kelly for some of the shoots.

Vanilla Cupcake Bakery (Glorietta Branch) visit ! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ

Okay, for my nth time visiting here at the Glorietta 3 Branch, the one located outside near the Family Mart. Yeah! I finally had a chance to steal snapshots of the picturesque place. I went there on the night of  May 7th with a lovely friend. (●⌒∇⌒●)

I was introduced to this cupcake shop, by my Etude House blogger friends. I am just so into anything Asian and Korean. (●⌒∇⌒●) Oh yes, Vanilla Cupcake Bakery like Tous Les Jours is, if Im not completely mistaken, is from a Korean company or owner or choo choo. Anyhow, any human - Kpop lover or not, would definitely be awed at the ambiance once you peek at this extraordinary cupcake shop. Im not even exaggerating.
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The view of the entrance(and exit of course) from our seats. What does it say? Check it out. Cool eh? 

This is where we have chosen to sit on our 2 and a half hour stay. ♥

kyaaaa!! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ 

Reminds me of Etude House's "Hello, Princess!" Nah, you wouldnt get that here, but they'll make you feel one! How cool is it daaht!!!  ლ(⌒▽⌒ლ) 

The cupcakes!!! kyaaaa! They have around  a count of 15+  cupcake varieties to choose from. They also have small cakes and desserts in a bottle. You see the New York Cheesecake right there? That is my fave stuff to hoard. ! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ

Price range would be from P75 to P110 and they are definitely worth it! 

We ordered Strawberry Cheesecake and our all time fave Red Velvet Choo Choo cupcakes.  (´ε｀ )♡  Great thing about their recipes, is that they are not too sweet nor do have too mainstream taste. They're just right and perfect for the flavor they named it.  

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This one was taken in Glorietta 3 branch as well, the one located inside the mall, days earlier with meh dear friend, Jes when we bought stuff for our friend's birthday.

It's worth the visit once in a while. Especially, when you're like me who's ready to dig in any cheesecake anytime.
LOL! (´･ω･`)

Perfect for a me-time, Spice of Life, heart to heart friendly talks, you name it. ♥  Hoard cupcakes for just so because moments with a loved one too!

I give this place a 9.5/10 rate!!Tippany's mood forecast ~~ feeling better!
Kyaaa~! ヽ(‘ ∇‘ )ノ

Credits to Mara Basa, for some of the snapshots. ^_^